February 2018 – // StarzDream //

You know what guys?

I will be bringing littleC out to meet friends for lunch ALONE today! Alone okay. Wish me luck 😂

Yay, I have braved through the day… But my shoulders are rather sng leh… she’s only 4.75kg my shoulders are giving way already?!?! My friend was tula-ing her 10kg toddler and she seemed okay leh.

She was basically sleeping most of the times in the tula. Only woke up for split few seconds to see see look look and fall back to sleep. 👏

My friends were telling me to enjoy their infant stage while I can cuz when they are older their hands are like octopus 🐙… basically everywhere and you will be busy ensuring they don’t anyhow touch things, pull people’s hair (lols), or kept dropping things 😂 This is actually the best time to bring them out cuz they only sleep 😴 I shall do that more often?

Anyone has this weird feeling while pumping? I have a weird and unpleasant sensation gushing up my boobs which i wonder is it blood flow that stimulates my milk? Most of the times i tried to multi task by pumping and eating meals at the same time (using my Freemie) but that weird sensation also took all my appetite away. Food just looks yucky to me… why hur? I can’t wait for the day I can stop pumping… I just dont like that feeling 🙁

Coming to 3 months already! My goal is to stop before i return back to work at 4 months mark 💪💪💪 I know its a bit wasted since I do have supply, though not over supply kind that can fill the freezer. I will do what I think is best for baby and also my own mental well being 😊

I think my sis has PMS yesterday.

Here’s the story

Mum has been sleeping in my sis’ room (on a floor laid mattress) ever since littleC’s born cuz she couldn’t sleep in the mbr when baby tends to makes funny sounds before she goes into deep sleep. When we rotate night feeds, I will wake her up when the bb cries and I will shift to my sis room to sleep instead. In this way, we can minimise waking each other up with little sound and movement when bb gets fussy.

She asked my mum when she can have her room back. It inconvenient her cuz she wants to watch youtube videos (ya, ikr) before she goes to bed, but my mum sleeps early at 10pm, sometimes 930pm and she can no longer do her things in the room.

Then my mum said Jiejie (me) and bb will move to her room to sleep when bb’s older. She had the BIGGEST reaction in her life. She said “HUH! THAT’S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN”

That’s not all, she even asked my mum why can’t she sleep in the living room? My bro interrupted and said “You dare to ask mum to sleep in the living room?” I was all silent thru out cuz I am the one who caused the dispute to happen 🙁 If I did not marry this AH and pop littleC, this will not happen. Yes my sis is immature, but perhaps I have broken her dream to have a room of her own.

Sis said she wants to buy new furniture new bed when she started working in a few months time. But how to now if I am to move to her room? (Thou we used to share room before I got married lah). Yesterday she was very 反常 cuz I thought she was easy and understanding about my situation as before littleC was born she even helped to build my Ikea chest of drawers for my clothes and stuff. We even talked about how we should redecorate the room together, but now she like that 😪

This whole saga makes me blame myself even more. Haiz. 如果我还住在自己的家，我家人就不必为这些不愉快了。I blame AH even more cuz he is such a jerk to have the hse to himself, whereas bb and I hv to squeeze into a tiny four-room flat with 4 other family members. He cld have moved bk to stay with his parents at landed property (mega bedroom) but he chose nt too due to his fking EGO.

Being a big sis I couldn’t even given knock sense on my baby sis when she was rude to my mum when they were discussing about the room. 😕😕😕

我高兴的太早

You know what? littleC wakes up for feed at 2plus 3am for 2 days in a row again! 😫 I thought she can sttn liao… but it doesn’t look like now. This mummy 妄想天开only.

Why I ❤️ Dayre

Hey guys

There is something that I realised I really enjoy abt Dayre… which is the 8 photos in the feed page. I can understand why “square” photos are required and the Dayre team did not make improvement for this requested which has been mentioned a zillion times.

Look at WP, there’s a longish banner of individual bloggers u followed in our feed page, but the banner image is a cut off from the main image uploaded by the blogger. Its usually cut off the middle of the picture, most of the times you cannot make up what’s the pic at all. Don’t you find it an eye sore? Or maybe I am too used to Dayre’s neat layout? It is so cuz WP allows all image sizes you see! Convenient for users but compromised e overall look and feel of the app itself.

In order not to be like WP, square photos are necessary to keep the feed page clean and neat. Not like WP and WBI (even). I am already used to this cuz instagram also uses square images ma. I might as well just take square photos right fr the beginning with my camera.

Also, I really love the 8 pics display at e feed page as I get a preview of what a Dayrean is gonna write about to help me decided if I shld click and start reading his/her post. Agree? Having more pics at the feed page also makes it more interesting to scroll thru… not jus chunks and chunks of text which i cannot swallow.

Another thing which i really hates about WP is the comments are separated from the post! I prefer them to be viewed together cuz I tend to miss comments for certain post.

If comments are placed below every post, its also easier for me to refer back in time to come, which is the case for Dayre. I know it is this way when you view via the browser, but so mafan right? I don’t like to switch between browser and app leh.

#Iamstaying

Has anyone seen baby papaya within a papaya? It looks like this!

This is the entire baby papaya when i took it out 😂

Job Interview | I still ❤️ Dayre

Going for an interview at 10.30am later. Wish me luck okay?

I prepped a little yesterday by reading about the company and practicing ways to answer questions on my previous jobs and how they can value add to the position I applied for. I feel jitters all over now cuz I haven’t been to interviews for FIVE years!!! All things rusty liao ok.

I am really in need to move out of my current job if you can take some time to read my post yst. Continue to stay there do me no good at all. I will 拼了命to ace the interview later.

为什么女人最容易长肉的地方就是手臂？

At this rate my arms are growing, 很快就蝴蝶秀了😫😫😫 I saw those friends whom are really slim before pregnancy de also have fatty arms now loh. Fat arms makes one look fat even thou the rest of the body are slim. Nooooo

See, this is why WP is still not comparable to dayre. Like I suddenly update about my interview after so many other stuff, it will look weird right? Chucks of contents here and there. Haiiiizz. Anyway, it went on okayyy but don’t have very good vibes leh. The interviewer asked some “trick questions” which i managed to breeze thru, so I guess that’s a good thing? Now just wait.

Anyone tried Mac’s lychee cone? Its nice! I should have ordered the pure lychee one instead of mixed. Its seasonal for V day only! if you haven’t, go grab one.

I was on the way back and wanted to buy a pair of earring at about $20 at Lovisa and a call came in…my mum. She said “Baby’s diaper finishing liao, left 2 pieces” I put down the earring immediately. Weighing the importance of both, earring is a need, not a want. #lifeofamum (btw, WP cannot hashtag one right?) literally. Whenever I wanna buy sthg I really like, I gotta think twice, sometimes thrice, even tho the item is not that ex to begin with. Baby’s necessities always come first.

Left home almost the whole day today cuz went shop shop with my sis after the interview. Felt good cuz i bought a pair of shorts from cotton on. Haha still bought sthg lah… but shorts more practical than earrings right? Am I giving myself excuses? Ops.

Hello readers from Dayre!

Quick quick, come follow me here. No point writing at Dayre anymore as I don’t wanna kept queuing for “re-export”. UNLESS, Dayre can be bought over by some investors and will not cease existing. I still ❤️ Dayre afterall. WordPress is really bo bian.

Stella and WeblogIt is really not my cuppa tea tbh. Stella uses photos to tell stories while WeblogIt tried very hard to match Dayreans’ expectations, I still find the app amateurish looking and layouts are quite messy in their app, hence I don’t have motivation to write much there lo.

Eh wordpress also have the quotes function leh… nubbad nubbad. Let me try.

Secretly hoping that all Dayreans will move to wordpress and I don’t lose any of you on the other side.

Oh btw, littleC slept thru the night again yst! I am jumping with happiness 😃😃 So far 4 nights in a row. First 4 nights brought her with me for CNY visits, but yst night she stayed home all day. Pls continue like this ahhh, mummy likes ❤️

Have you all come across this?

人生那么长真的要讲究

而不是选择“将就”

退而求其次的过活

找另一半也是

要找过一辈子是能带给妳感动的

而不是把生活过的很乏味的人

Grabbed from my friend’s post in fb. Can’t agree more.

Time flies so fast, we are saying goodbye to Feb soon. I will be heading back to work in the first week of April. Tbh, I look forward to the enriching myself with work and hanging out with colleagues, but certainly not looking forward to joining back when the company is in a mess! So much things happened during my maternity leave period.

2 colleagues were retrenched
1 colleague found a new job
lunch kakis mostly gone. Only 1/4 left.
A major event I was handling before ML was postpone to Dec 2018 due to bad response, when the speakers are lousy in the first place. That also means I gotta redo all the stuff again. Sian max cuz can you imagine doing the same thing ALL OVER AGAIN?!, and it is likely to fail again? Lousy event and management, it is set to fail. Damn low morale.
Certain staff benefits have been taken off
Rumours are spreading that workdays may be adjusted to alternate saturdays. wtf.
Rumours are also spreading that more staff benefits will be removed. I.e. Flexi claims. They are introducing these changes in phases so that it won’t do too much damage to staff morale at one point in time. I think no diff lor.

Since all my posts from dayre have been migrated here…my itchy hands went to “reminisce” the older posts.

And yes, i dug my own grave.

Anyone reading this in a similar situation, pls i beg you, walk away before its too late hor!

T H A N K Y O U 🙆‍♀️

Before dayre really shuts down, I wanna dedicate a post to thank my family.

Mum 👵🏻 – thank you for helping with the laundry, taking turn for bb’s night feed, ask me to go out meet my frds n she will take care of bb.

Dad 🧓🏻- thank you for sharing room with my bro and let bb and I have the mbr. Only mbr have sufficient space for playpen. Also, you helped to rock baby at night while i pump and wash the bottles.

Bro 👱🏼‍♂️- thank you for playing with bb and carrying her while I make milk.

Sis 👩🏻 – thank you for being my “purchaser” for baby stuff like milk powder and diapers. With one whatsapp, she will drop by supermarket to buy bb necessities for me. I basically don’t have to step outta house.

littleC 👶🏻 – thank you for being the sweetest girl to mummy. You only cry when really necessary most of the times and learns to sleep when i play lulluby on my iPad during your bedtime. You also sleep for longer hours at night allowing mummy and Ah ma to have more rest. Thank you baby!

I am very blessed cuz I lost something but gained so much more! 😊

Family is love. The only people who don’t abandon u thru thick and thin are your family ♥️

littleC sttn since day 1 of CNY! 🤗 Good job baby. It started from chu1 cuz i think she was too tired having to sleep at a different environment (my grandma’s place) for like 6 hours, when most of her sleeps are interrupted. That’s prob why she KO-ed the entirely night and forgotten abt her milk milk.

Chu2 was the same as we visit my uncle place and stayed there the entire evening. My relatives and their kids kept playing with her and kept her awake most of the times. Night time KO as well…

Chu3 and 4 also brought her along for those loose visitings. Similarly, KO-ed at night. Lols, i wanted to test if she still KO last night since we didn’t bring her out. Happy that she slept thru from 1130pm to 530am. Yay! I hope her schedule will remain fixed like this then i wont have problem when I start working in April. Way to go my baby!

However I realised whenever she sleeps for a longer stretch of time, instead of drinking more milk, she drinks lesser sia 🤷‍♀️ Is it normal huh?

She has been drinking 90-100ml since 1 month and today she’s 1 week short of 3 months le. Tried giving her 10ml extra to test if she wants, but always ended up wasting that 10ml.

Any insights fellow mummies?

Why that 3 dots after my short bio?

I didn’t key in those 3 dots leh…@ricetomeetyou

@dayxport I failed to even pass the verification stage. Is it due to the 3 dots? 🤷‍♀️

Like finally…

BUT…by the time it goes below 7,000 my page become dead?

Its impossible for the queue to go below 7,000! waited the entire hour and when it slowly drops to close to 7,000… it shoot up to 8,000+ again within few secs.

I am so frustrated. Queued so many times for the no to hit below 7,000… every time failed. I know the queue numbers are not real time but cannot be that far? My queue no hit as low as 6500? Whay!!! 😫😫😍

What!?! the export actually works without me knowing? there wasn’t a page that tells me the export is in progress or sthg…

Now it looks like my posts for exported twice. Anyone knows how to remove dups all at one go?

@3rdteen I think she’s unlikely to sttn tonight le. Why? She only drank 40ml out of 90ml milk 😫 No matter how I beg or push teat into her mouth, she dont budge. I am too tired to persevere on, give up.

Good nite dayreans!

A home 🏡 that I used to own

Paiseh arrr… 初五write depressing stuff. Bear with me.

真有点伤感

I am looking thru some kitchen designs for my mum in Qanvast. Oh man, I miss my bto. My white and spacious kitchen with lots and lots of storage space. My dresser table with everything i need within that small space. My MBR with a king sized bed and ample walking space, cuz we wanted to put a baby cot there just in case bb refused to sleep on its own in the bb rm…sadly, they are all vacant now. What’s left is a lot of dust, emptiness and a sad feeling.

Well, what’s not meant to be, aren’t.

That AH used to tell me he loves our home a lot. So did I. This little nest of ours is practical, child friendly (with all the rounded corners) and with our fav minimalist theme. Simple, yet classy. I love every inch of it. I love doing my things in the house, in my little space, shifting things and rearranging stuff the way I love, the way that’s pleasing to my eyes.

I THOUGHT I FINALLY HAVE A PLACE OF MY OWN. After sharing room with my sis/bro for 30 odd years.

But to him, the first thing he wanted me to do was to cook him a meal with the new kitchen. We had a fight on that day when I was too tired to cook after packing the stuff. Our priorities were different. I still don’t think I am wrong till now… can’t we just split duties? Instead of putting the blame on anyone, can’t you just help out with packing or do the cooking while I pack? Why do I have to do everything while u kiao kah and start blaming me? Its not fair. Maybe he 过惯大少爷life already.

Well, a cliche as it may seem…

A Home Is a Feeling, Not Just a Place.

A home js made up of its people staying there. The cozy feeling, the happiness, the love you get. Sadly, I did not get these feeling most of the time when I was staying there.

Ensuring the house is spick and clean is my motto, not his. He needs a wife that cooks for him everyday, and a clean house is secondary. Our marriage goals are different. I still remember the day we officially move into the house… the first thing i wanna do were to unpack and arrange my stuff.

I think he needs a maid that LISTENS TO HIM, and not a wife to dote for life. Well sorry, I don’t fit your criteria and so do you.

Although I dont know the fate of dayre yet, I still wanna post up these photos for memory sake. I once have a lovely home with elements that I ♥️:

Living room tv feature wall. Rounded corners and child friendly.

Shoe cabinet and sofa area – what you see when you walk in from the main door. Again, rounded corners and child friendly.

Study cum bedroom – did it this functional cuz we wanted more than 1 kid. Each child can have their own room.

Kitchen. This is the not the final
3D design cuz can’t find the final copy. The left side of the wall should have the top cabinet as well… also my built-in oven.

MBR. Look at the tiny space with my dressing table and the small window with natural lighting. There is also a tiny cut out on my side of the bed that doubles up as side table for charging my hp, hand cream and other stuff.

MBR. King sized cozy bed with a wall mounted smart tv.

Someone posted this on IG. SO TRUE. My next partner gonna be someone who apologises first in whatever circumstances. That will be my test for him cuz 一朝被蛇咬十年怕草绳。Period.

Brought littleC out to visit a friend yesterday.

She slept from 12am to 645am last nite. I realised her pattern liao… whenever I brought her out, she will refused to sleep near bedtime. After her last feed at 10plus, I will put her on the bed (while i play music using my iPad) and I go do my stuff like pumping, wash milk bottles, brush teeth, apply face moisturizer. She will be seen fidgeting and making some cute sounds like talking to herself. By the time I’m done, she started to look a little tired and yawn but like still refused sleep.

Tried lying down next to her cuz I was actually v tired by then…then without my realisation she fell asleep!

So the morale of the story is… so far she can only sttn if I bring her out.

CNY 初二

I agree with @sabrinaseah that bringing a 2 months baby out for CNY visitation is seriously no joke.

Firstly, you gotta prep your baby, pump, eat your meal, bath and do makeup before leaving the house. Confirm won’t reach on time cuz u follow baby’s timing on the last feed/diaper change.

Secondly, you gotta carry 大包小包, plus we carried a portable baby bed to my grandma’s place. Luckily got my bro’s help. Not light okay, he dun need go gym liao.

Thirdly, you can no long join in your cousins for those mini gamblings or chit chats cuz well… needa keep a lookout for baby ma. Also luckily I have aunties that don’t mind to carry her. Everyone loves her 😊

Woke up at 6am today for littleC’s first feed of the day! Usually if she wakes at this timing, I will go back to sleep for a good one hour after feeding and changing her diaper…but since today’s 除夕, I feel hyped and excited! Shouldn’t waste another hour sleeping? 🤨

Now pumping while I type this. Feeling happy cuz later i gonna tula littleC to ntuc with my sis to buy tonight’s steamboat ingredients! I like family gatherings, be it big or small. Extra elated this year as I don’t have to spend with AH and his toxic family anymore, YAY! Although littleC is too young to feel my family’s close knitted-ness, I am glad she is here with me while we gather together 🤗

Haha rem I mentioned in the earlier post that 花生莲藕soup helps to increase my supply? I drank 3 big bowls last night, let’s see my pump output shortly ya?

Update: Output this morning was only 120ml, which is my normal yield. That soup didn’t actually work leh. The other time might just be coincidental nia 😑