Seriously why am i holding back this marriage? Am i afraid of not able to cope with the aftermath? Am i afraid of being judged as the divorcee? Am i afraid of being alone?
I know i have a supportive family whom will always welcome me with open arms if i'm to terminate this marriage.
I feel that he is like a lil boy who childish throws tantrum as and when he likes. I have to coax him everytime this happens. He never in this 6 years of dating/marriage ever gave in to me.
I'm the one who always apologies be it my fault or his. I'm the one who needs to put myself so low to "kow tow" to him and beg him to "forgive me". Do you think a guy who never put down his "face" truely loves his wife?
I remember I read an article somewhere that a guy who gives in even tho he felt he's right truely loves the wife. He is afraid of losing her n hence willing to do it. From this case study, I feel that my hb will feel nthg even if I am to walk away from him one day.
Watching the 9pm drama. Rui en said "如果人生可以重来,我决对不会嫁给你!" Yes, that's how I truely felt now.
Should I give myself a long break?
Everytime we quarrelled, I feel we are drawing nearer n nearer to the end. You pushing me away, making me certain of the decision, you are listing more n more reason why i should leave you. Our quarrels are not like the normal couple bickering, they are cutting a deeper wound into my already wounded scar. It is bleeding non stop.
Whenever i see friends showing off their world best husband,I feel like unfriending them. Seriously. Yes, i am jealous. Why ppl can get a husband with 10 good qualities when mine doesn't even acheive 1/10?
This is a fb post by a friend:
Thanks for being the awesome hubby to me and now daddy to baby. Thanks for always being there, doing household chores (more than me, and allow me to be lazy), cooking yummy food for me and ensuring I am always well fed with home cooked food (although I will just say dabao food to save the trouble). Thanks for always bringing Doggie out to pee and poo so I can sleep/nua longer. Thanks for loving me with all the little and big things you do. I am really blessed to have someone like you in my life.
i don't wish to compare but he is too far fetch. Yes i deceives it. You, who's reading this now may be thinking… who ask you not to open your eyes bigger before saying yes? You are asking for it what? Ppl around you have already hinted you to think and think again but you still step into this coffin? Haizz