Work | Mama’s cooking

Lugging 2 huge bags to a work event this morning! Those who followed my entry yst will know why. LOLS boss still msged us not to bring big bags due to limited booth space… but no choice leh.

Woke up at 5-ish this morning n woke hub up and to prepare so that i won't be late for my advance taxi booking at 715am.

Legs are breaking for standing from 8am. Yay, on a happy note, I'm heading home for home cooked dinner by mom. Don't need to to think of what to eat 是幸福的。I call it 温暖牌 dinner. Something that I miss so much since I've moved out. Dinner on the table when I reached home and watching a common show with my family members enjoy and we can discuss about it 😍😍.

Haha can't let the hub read this! I am wondering are most of the dayrens' bf/husband following your entries???

Something happy, at least.

I see things are improving.

Feeling real great whenever we don't have arguement. It feels like we are back to our dating days when we both feel like being kids.

May is a happy month as its OUR B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y.S!!!!

Don't know if this is destiny, our birthdays are just a day aparts (minus the year, he is older). As I didn't know he wants since he has everything (ops, I knew he wants PS4 but refused as he is already facing his gaming lappie for most of the time when he's home), i decided to bake for him. Let me show you my maiden 'successful' bake. I have no forte in baking…

Not bad right? (Haha patting my own shoulders) My only regret is I forgot to sprinkle icing sugar on top!!! Nvm perhaps the nx time i can serve guest with this recipe le. 至少能见人啦！ 哈哈！

Haha here's his bday present for me, plus a Macbook Air hardcase, plus haha yeah my #iRobotRoomba880 which I hinted him to get me in Feb/March during Lazada's birthday bash promotion. I am not a flower lover but a little 心意 goes a long way 😊😊

Hub is going to malaysia to work for 2 days. Means I am officially "off" haha. Gonna stay over at mom's place cuz I don't wanna be alone at home fighting war with the little "小强” if there is. I cannot imagine what I will do if I am left alone with a ladybug or roach. 😰 Perhaps i will ask neighbour to help to kill it? I know, ppl dare not be home alone cuz they are scared of the 'invisible things', but no so for my case. 又没做亏心事。

Very tempted by Fitbit Alto, should I?

I am currently wearing Fitbit Charge HR but finds it rather thick and broad on my small wrist. Also the plum colour makes it difficult to match with my work clothes. The latest Alto looks so much sleeker and less sporty look. Even the strip are changeable anytime if you are ok with then hefty price tag.

Hmm… but money will 💸 leh.

Insomnia. Why is my life full of downs?

Insomnia again. Tried very hard to sleep but cant't. Popped in a running nose tablet to make myself drowsy in order to aid me to sleep. Have been doing that, cuz no choice, can sleep better than can't sleep entire night. I wonder if there are any sleeping pills that are easier to get from pharmacies? If there are, it will be a life saver.

I tell you, my body is extremely fatique but my mind keeps wondering….causing the insomnia.

Wake up feeling a big heavy on my head.

As usual whenever we quarrelled, he will silently left house in the morning. On usual days, he will say goodbye while I'm still half asleep.

I am actually glad my work now is not that straining or stressed. I cannot imagine working in a high paced company with the uneccessary nonsense my hb gave me every night… how to concentrate? But on the other hand, maybe its better since I don't even have the time to think abt it.

Sleepy already, yawning non stop

Feel like camping in the toilet to take a nap but my office toilet is urgghhh… cramp and cmi….

Quarrel everyday. Phyisically and emotionally tired.

I rem he made a psycho statement that day. "Don't know why, I feel that I love you more after we have quarrelled or after I've scolded you" Don't you think he is mentally unsound to say that? You have to make your wife go thru so much horror to vent ur inner unhappiness.

I have to say all the quarrels started becoz he was unhappy abt me doing things in a certain way. I never dare to say anything despite his countless bad habits.

I find myself searching this online. 'First steps to filing for a divorce'. Very sad. But I really dont know how long can I take his nonsense. Why stay in a marriage if its worst than being single? Now no children makes things easier….

I am quite sure he will be ok if i raise the D qn up. His chavaunistic character is enough to predict his response.

How can a couple who cannot even do a proper amicable conversation last long? And its not me, its him who always flame up.

I really wanted to write sthg positive here… but really nthg. I wish for nthg but only H.A.P.P.I.N.E.S.S

Divorce has crossed my mind countless times in this 2 years of marriage. Should I?

Can anyone tolerate a hb who is a verbal bully? I have been verbally abused every other days. He scolded me harsh vulgarities, he scolded me stupid all the times, he humiliated me for little things. How do you see progress in this kind of marriage? I started to really hate him….and this is a bad sign. Yes, there are good times. But the intensity of the bad ones always over take the happy ones.

Let me site some examples:
🙁 I cannot visit my family as and when I want to. Need to seek his permission.
🙁 His work doesnt allow him to go for vacation. But I cannot go with my friends as well. He said he will feel lonely at home.
🙁 I cannot even go for yearly overseas trip with my family.
🙁 If i go out with my family, I cannot post pictures on social media as he deemed his family will be unhappy.
🙁 During my off days, he will expect me to cook meals for him or bake sthg nice for him.

🙁 I cannot take up courses to learn impractical things like making accessories, painted, piano, etc. I can only learn to cook or bake so that I can do it for him (damn self-centred)
🙁 I cannot talk back to him when we are in a heated conversation.
🙁 Even when I feel that I'm not wrong, I am still expected to apologise. All my reasons are excuses and bullshits to him.

Why must I see friends posting on their pregnancy everyday?

I have a habit of hiding such post so that i won't see anymore updates on that anymore. Yes, you can say I am jealous. You cannot blame me…. that's the only way to make me feel better.