Month: November 2017

Week 35 | Steroid Jabs 💉 on my butts

Went for gynea appt again yesterday. So expected, things did not turn out so well.

Placenta is still calcified. The main point is, baby only gained a pathetic 0.1kg over 1 week. That makes her total weight 1.9kg. Why is it so hard to reach 2kg? The reason is simple, my placenta is not functioning to its fullest potential. My durian, avo, beef and birds nest in take are not absorbed by baby? How sad….

So gynea gave me some specific instructions.

Go Mt A for 2x steroid shots at 12 hours interval. I went for one at 530pm yst and just did another one at freaking 530am today. That explains my earlier post today (Yawnzzzz 😴) The steriod shots are to speed up the maturity of bb’s lung to prepare for birth in time to come. That being said, dr will want to wait till week 37 to deliver my gal. Yst’s appt was week 35. Coincidentally he will be travelling the week after i delivered, how qiao hor? 🤔

Oh, forgot to mention… the jab on one side of my butt was very manageable but on the other side gave a sharp shooting pain but subsided in while. Overall still alright 😊

But come out earlier also good lah. Give me a peace of mind. Don’t have to be stressed over counting kicks everyday. Gynea likes to give me a damn serious face when he emphasized the seriousness of kicks counting. Like I took it too easy. Ok ok, I try harder doctor.

I am scheduled for ctg scans on monday and thursday. Friends have been telling me… next appt can be the day you get ready to pop. I shall get my hospital bag ready by then, I never know ya? (thou nx app is only week 36).

I had a glimpse of the delivery suite earlier… cuz took my jabs inside. So festive looking you see. Definitely helps in reducing tension when u r about to pop!

Walked pass this passage way. I must be staying in one of the rooms in 2 weeks’ time. Heard babies crying when I walked passed liao. Quite excited, yet nervous at the same time.

Underwater world decor. I love how this hospital made it so much like home 🏠 for us.

#dayrepregnant

I feel significantly less/ close to no baby movement after the 2nd steroid jab. Worried.

Went back to Mt A again to do ctg scan again. Hope all will be well 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Just came back home. Heartbeat and contraction are both okay. Gynea came by to take a look as well… he said everything looks fine for me. The steroid jabs shouldn’t have any side effects for baby (he did it so many times). So the waiting game continues. He emphasized again, it kicks become unsual again, come back for ctg. Like that if tmr bb’s still not kicking much, i come back again?

I asked him then why don’t deliver her now? Was told she needs to be in nicu if deliver so early… but isn’t it safer to put her in intensive care than to risk whatever unknown that may happen?

Maternity shoot – own 📸 (34 weeks 5 days)

I was initially quite hesitant to take maternity shoot (for you know what reason – no husband, sad to take alone) but a friend recommended someone she knows and the package was friendship price…sooo I decided to give it a shot. Anyway who knows this may be my first and last pregnancy. Just go so that i’ve no regrets!

Below are some photos that was taken using my sis’ iPhone… not from the photographer. How I wish I can 露脸, but for now…I prefer to be known as rabbits and cats… hahahaha…

Not a poser, as you can tell…. wahahaha

Mandatory sheer curtain shot

Sitting like that makes my legs look long only…

Just to share something funny before the shoot earlier. I didn’t know the photographer was a GUY!!! I thought such shoots are normally done by female photographers de lor, so i didn’t even ask before that. Awkward much. I planned to just wear bra and undies de… luckily my sis was with me, else, I will be alone with a guy in the room bearly wearing anything? 😱😱😱

Well, I think he can feel my awkwardness and made the whole shoot very relaxing and cracked jokes. So it well pretty well.

Can’t wait to see the edited photos. They said I need to wait for another 2 weeks after they adjust the colour and brightness of the raw photos. Not sure if the one inside can wait for 2 weeks… so I decided to choose photos the next time when i return for the new born shoot 😊

Glad that one thing is off my checklist! ✔️

Let me start some new hashtags here #lifeafterseparation #findmyselfback #pregnantandseparated #singlemomtobe

Officially on 2 weeks HL! 🎉🎊

I was so concerned after my gynea appt 2 days back that I called the clinic yst to request for HL. Try my luck only… but Doc approved!

Didn’t expect myself to go into the “nesting” mode when my EDD is supposed to be only 3rd Jan. But what to do? 🤷‍♀️ I need to do what’s best for my baby. Poor contract staff taking over my work during my ML have to be a quick learner liao. I offered to go back on Mon to handover properly to him.

It’s quite tough cuz a lot of things are done half past six now and I couldn’t finish it before i go. We need info from other parties before we can proceed with it. This guy has to be proactive and resourceful as no one can guide him… as nobody knows what I do that can help him. He can always text/call before I pop lah… but once bb’s out it’s another story. Don’t think i can reply that promptly. I do what I can to help bah.

Now it’s time to beef baby up! Baby gained 0.6kg over 2 weeks the last time. So, from now till my appt on thurs, I need to set target liao…

🎯 500 grams

But why i still cannot find durian around my estate har? I think what you guys recommended, Durian and Avocado works leh!

But thennnn… i just heard that Durian’s heatiness will give baby bad skin. Anyone has encountered that? However, bad skin is better than small and premature baby?

Yumzzz come to mama!

Week 34 – the worst gynea trip

Look at my stats. Aging stage 3 placenta and slightly decreased amniotic acid.

I wasn’t that worried until i google.

Gynea said my appointments will be weekly from now onwards. That’s means if baby is found to be in danger at any of the upcoming appts, he might do emergency c sect. I didn’t expect this to happen 😢… only thought baby is just small.

Anyway she is 1.8kg today. I thought its a significant improvement from last appt 2 weeks back? Why now like that?

Train Tale

Sharing something that just happened in the train…He call himself a man?!?!?

[Train tale] this guy best lor… saw me standing in front he suddenly fall asleep with his phone screen on… when another lady gave up her seat for me, he suddenly wake up and watch his show.

[Train tale part 2] Then comes another old lady with walking stick. He stared at her for at least 5 seconds… I am about to stand up liao… he LL stood up.

1.2kg 👶🏻 at 32 weeks 🤰🏻

Doctor said baby is on the small side, whereas I gained 2kg from the last appointment a month back 😭 @sabrinaseah’s baby is 1.2kg on 29 weeks. Why r u so petite my girl?

In two week’s time i need to go for a growth scan + doppler which cost me $260+ (cuz not included in the package). That is to check if blood is flowing to the baby… and if this is affecting the slow growth of baby. Girl, why make mummy worry? Please grow strong and well okay? Mummy have faith in you!

Doctor also said I really need to count baby kicks. Should achieve 10 kicks in 2 hours. I admit I always forgot lah… count from 9am but I am normally busy with work or meeting whenever i reached office! How to count everyday? But for at least the next 2 weeks I have to do that for baby.

Anddddd… i have to cut ice-cream and sweet stuff cuz all the weight went to me? Carbo also cause I love carbo now leh…especially noodles, i hate rice!

妈妈的顾虑

My mum just told me this morning.

Uncle said "I think she still loves him unless she can find her another love. I can tell from her expression when signing the separation deed"

Mum added that "如果有一天他被那tiong摔了跪下求你，你千万三思！”

Firstly, with his extreme ego, he wont beg. Secondly, I won't go back as 我不是衣服，给你要换就换。 Thirdly, if i go back, 我太对不起关心我的家人了。

Maybe I still couldn't hide my feelings towards him… 还有点依依不舍，but I am in the right mind to know what is right to do. So mum, 不用担心 😊

On a happier note, a friend of mine, after 3 failed IUIs and 3 IVF transfers… she is expecting TWINS –
a boy and girl! God has his plan for everyone. I believe he has one for me too. 😊

Every button that I clicked is like knife stabbing through my heart.

So… I decided to change my FB status to 'Single'. Not just that, I deleted most of our albums. Goodbye 7 years of memories. There were good ones but browsing thru them is not going to do me any good to move on. 该删掉的还是该删。

I went back home to collect some stuff yst, saw that he scribbled some wording (mainly in han yu pin yin) on a piece of rough paper on the table.

He is helping his gf to look for proper education in singapore in order to get her a childcare teacher job in Singapore. Come I 👏 for you. Never have I seen you do something extra miles for me.

He even went online to find out what's the procedure of Singaporean marrying a PRC on work permit. Look, I think he is serious about her. Let's see what kind of family tragedy that will result.

Btw, I think I didn't share before that his mum was diagnosed with 2nd stage cancer around the same time she knew about what he did to me.

Do whatever you want, just don't affect me and baby will do. I wish you the best.